Thursday, September 22, 2011

Stress

Tomorrow is my last day of uni - ever! It is exciting yet scary at the same time, because it means I have my final exams in 2 weeks.

The stress levels are rising, which means the binge grinch is screaming at me on a daily basis. Yesterday everything fell apart... Yep, weigh-in day - the day my eating should be the most clean out of excitement from my results! Instead, it was an absolute disaster.

Today was better, but yesterday is still haunting me. I am going to have to train like I have never trained before to fix the damage done...

It really says a lot about my triggers for binging and how oblivious I can be to my stress levels. There are no excuses and I can't change what happened. Instead, I can analyse why it happened and develop some strategies to lock the binge grinch away when he comes knocking at my door. It feels like two steps forward, one step back... But at least I am making progress in the right direction, even if it is slow.

With exams so close, the stress levels are not going to get any better. They are going to get drastically worse. My usual study cocktails of sugar, fat and energy drinks are no longer an option and I really hope I make it through without too many setbacks.

My study timetable is organised. My study breaks and workouts are diarised.

I am ready.

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