Saturday, August 13, 2011

"I'm not fat! I'm just big boned!"

I was having a discussion about self-image and how we perceive ourselves with my best friend today (who lost 6.8kg in Round 2 of 12WBT this year!! Let's call her Awesome Best Friend). For such a long time I always made excuses for my weight. I used to say, 'I'm tall, so of course I'm not going to be slim!' 'I am big boned!' 'There's nothing wrong with this weight!' I used to measure my waist and think that just because I am tall, the <80cm waist measurement recommendation did not apply to me!

Seriously... Talk about denial!

After losing 11kg (but unfortunately putting 4kg back on), I have seen the light! My weight was NOT healthy and I am NOT big boned! And I am NEVER going back!

I took my first progress photos yesterday and I really can't believe it. If I look THAT bad at 77kg, imagine what I looked like at 84kg! And how did I get to be that heavy?!

I think I need to do some serious soul-searching and work out why I find such comfort in food. Things are improving though and I am not feeling the urge to overeat several times a day. Over the last few days I have only had one moment where my old-self started to come out (which I quite happily hit on the head pretty fast!).

And so today ABF and I were at an outdoor event together, where we would normally buy take-away for lunch on the way (usually in the form of Hungry Jacks)... This time, we planned ahead and used the camp stove to make beef ravioli with tomato-based sauce and a naked green salad! It was just under 300 calories and tasted delicious! WIN!

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